I didn't even realize it until I saw the date today..
I actually had to think about it, but I knew there was some significance to today. Something just kept "ringing a bell" in my head...
Two years ago I was delivered the hardest kick in the nuts that I have ever received... two years ago at 5:15 pm... I almost forgot it. I bet next year, if I don't pay attention to the date, I wont even notice it...
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Summer in the city
I have moved to the city for the next few weeks.. pet sitting.
I've been here before and done all this before, but that was when I had absolutely nothing else to do other than sit around and wallow in self pity. In fact, the last time was when Linda popped back up.
Now.. I'm fucking tired as all hell. I have to get up early and get the critters walked and fed, then get myself walked and fed, hop in the truck and take an unfamiliar commute.
Add to that, I started on a second "quick" job today... pulling down a bathroom ceiling and replacing it. I thought it would have taken just a few hours.. that was until the mold started coming down too.. then I had to work slow.. really slow. I didn't have the proper gear for this and I couldn't leave them without a functional bathroom..(it's the only one) So I took it on the rest of the day. Had to replace the framing structure, redo my entire plan of how to replace this ceiling.
Something kept telling me to be outta there by 5:30.. no matter what. so I pushed it and picked up the pace. I was sweating like a pig all day. I had to have stunk. No way to tell the time other than to stop and get my phone from the tool box... The next series of cuts I had to do, I checked.. 5:33... I started at an even more furious pace and then I heard it... I heard it happen out in the living room
Yes.. I was working on her Mom's place.. and yes... I had hoped to see her...
But I knew I had to get the hell out because I knew the next thing I was going to hear from the living room was... "This is Jay...."
But wait... it gets better.. They poke their heads around the corner (which is just across from Linda's room) to see whats going on and I had to do the obligatory stop in mid work and say "Whats up Jay.. been a long time.. what have you been up to?"
Yup.. I know him. Known him a long time. What kinda makes it really weird.. is that he doesn't know about me. Linda told me that was who she was seeing.. she had mentioned my name to him and he said he knew me... a few days later, he asked what our relationship had been. She told me this.. that she had said we were just friends.. I added in for her to say that we had worked together, I had helped her move and that I was going to be working on her moms bathroom...
The guy doesn't know... and he probably doesn't know about the 2 dozen texts we exchanged after that while they were at dinner.. it started with me saying that I wasn't ready for that just yet, but thought I handled it pretty well... her response was that she felt bad and thought I would have been gone by that time, but she does miss me.
There were a bunch more that I'm not gonna go into because it doesn't matter... It doesn't anymore.. I hesitated and lost.. and I'm not going to get into another "fight"
He makes her happy and treats her well, I have no reason to impose on that..
Told Linda that too.
But I do miss her
But its probably for the best, I mean... I need to start thinning out the herd so to speak.... I've got way to much going on with to many people plus getting a business off the ground.. I think I'll start trimming when I get home.. I'll be 3 weeks in the city with plenty of time to think... and decide if I'm going to take a few trips or not...
Oh, I forgot to mention.. I have a bunch of out of town offers... offers to be flown in just to "hang out" for a few days... I'm not stupid, I know what the offer is, I'm just deciding if I want to go that route again (only one is single..). And then there are the others.... I'm still debating if I want to put those adventures down or not... there's been quite a few the past month..
And one REALLY interesting "battle" at a bar a few days ago.. newly divorced chick sitting between me and this other guy going through one.. obviously, our attentions turned to her and it was the BEST game of cat and mouse that you could have witnesses. I knew I lost when he went and got a room at the luxury hotel that the bar was in.. I knew he had it at that point.. but he and I exchanged information and I invited him out to be my wingman any day, because he does have some skills, formidable ones..Haven't heard back yet, but its only been a couple days and he is probably still recovering because I bet she showed him what the world was like.. you could tell she was an animal... you could just tell...
DAMN.. I wish I had more time to party and less time to work while I'm here....
Oh well, I could always say yes to a plane ticket
I've been here before and done all this before, but that was when I had absolutely nothing else to do other than sit around and wallow in self pity. In fact, the last time was when Linda popped back up.
Now.. I'm fucking tired as all hell. I have to get up early and get the critters walked and fed, then get myself walked and fed, hop in the truck and take an unfamiliar commute.
Add to that, I started on a second "quick" job today... pulling down a bathroom ceiling and replacing it. I thought it would have taken just a few hours.. that was until the mold started coming down too.. then I had to work slow.. really slow. I didn't have the proper gear for this and I couldn't leave them without a functional bathroom..(it's the only one) So I took it on the rest of the day. Had to replace the framing structure, redo my entire plan of how to replace this ceiling.
Something kept telling me to be outta there by 5:30.. no matter what. so I pushed it and picked up the pace. I was sweating like a pig all day. I had to have stunk. No way to tell the time other than to stop and get my phone from the tool box... The next series of cuts I had to do, I checked.. 5:33... I started at an even more furious pace and then I heard it... I heard it happen out in the living room
"Hi Linda, did you come to see the mess?"
Yes.. I was working on her Mom's place.. and yes... I had hoped to see her...
But I knew I had to get the hell out because I knew the next thing I was going to hear from the living room was... "This is Jay...."
But wait... it gets better.. They poke their heads around the corner (which is just across from Linda's room) to see whats going on and I had to do the obligatory stop in mid work and say "Whats up Jay.. been a long time.. what have you been up to?"
Yup.. I know him. Known him a long time. What kinda makes it really weird.. is that he doesn't know about me. Linda told me that was who she was seeing.. she had mentioned my name to him and he said he knew me... a few days later, he asked what our relationship had been. She told me this.. that she had said we were just friends.. I added in for her to say that we had worked together, I had helped her move and that I was going to be working on her moms bathroom...
The guy doesn't know... and he probably doesn't know about the 2 dozen texts we exchanged after that while they were at dinner.. it started with me saying that I wasn't ready for that just yet, but thought I handled it pretty well... her response was that she felt bad and thought I would have been gone by that time, but she does miss me.
There were a bunch more that I'm not gonna go into because it doesn't matter... It doesn't anymore.. I hesitated and lost.. and I'm not going to get into another "fight"
He makes her happy and treats her well, I have no reason to impose on that..
Told Linda that too.
But I do miss her
But its probably for the best, I mean... I need to start thinning out the herd so to speak.... I've got way to much going on with to many people plus getting a business off the ground.. I think I'll start trimming when I get home.. I'll be 3 weeks in the city with plenty of time to think... and decide if I'm going to take a few trips or not...
Oh, I forgot to mention.. I have a bunch of out of town offers... offers to be flown in just to "hang out" for a few days... I'm not stupid, I know what the offer is, I'm just deciding if I want to go that route again (only one is single..). And then there are the others.... I'm still debating if I want to put those adventures down or not... there's been quite a few the past month..
And one REALLY interesting "battle" at a bar a few days ago.. newly divorced chick sitting between me and this other guy going through one.. obviously, our attentions turned to her and it was the BEST game of cat and mouse that you could have witnesses. I knew I lost when he went and got a room at the luxury hotel that the bar was in.. I knew he had it at that point.. but he and I exchanged information and I invited him out to be my wingman any day, because he does have some skills, formidable ones..Haven't heard back yet, but its only been a couple days and he is probably still recovering because I bet she showed him what the world was like.. you could tell she was an animal... you could just tell...
DAMN.. I wish I had more time to party and less time to work while I'm here....
Oh well, I could always say yes to a plane ticket
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Another one bites the dust
Soooo
Linda's gone for good.
She and I had discussed having dinner this weekend or next week when she got back from a vacation. I had planned to ask her what she would expect from me if we started seeing each other again.. I was ready to talk about what it was that I did that she didn't like, and what it was that she did that made me uncomfortable..
Doesn't matter now. She told me yesterday that she had something to tell me that would probably make me sad... I asked what it was. She said she would tell me at dinner when we went out. I asked her to just tell me after spitting out all kinds of off the wall guesses... I'm glad she did tell me
She met someone and he makes her happy
I called off dinner because there was no point.
Now mind you, we are still friends and we do plan on hanging out, but right now it still stings a little to do that.
That's what I get for hesitating... missing an opportunity. we'll never know now... oh well, nothing I can do about it without making empty promises and that is something I wont do.
And i am getting a little "over scheduled" now.. My business is getting better, I may have some assistance coming along to help get it further off the ground.. and they are still coming out of the woodwork... I need to start prioritizing.. and I mean where I go first....
Linda's gone for good.
She and I had discussed having dinner this weekend or next week when she got back from a vacation. I had planned to ask her what she would expect from me if we started seeing each other again.. I was ready to talk about what it was that I did that she didn't like, and what it was that she did that made me uncomfortable..
Doesn't matter now. She told me yesterday that she had something to tell me that would probably make me sad... I asked what it was. She said she would tell me at dinner when we went out. I asked her to just tell me after spitting out all kinds of off the wall guesses... I'm glad she did tell me
She met someone and he makes her happy
I called off dinner because there was no point.
Now mind you, we are still friends and we do plan on hanging out, but right now it still stings a little to do that.
That's what I get for hesitating... missing an opportunity. we'll never know now... oh well, nothing I can do about it without making empty promises and that is something I wont do.
And i am getting a little "over scheduled" now.. My business is getting better, I may have some assistance coming along to help get it further off the ground.. and they are still coming out of the woodwork... I need to start prioritizing.. and I mean where I go first....
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