oh yeah....

Delores got her own place just after my accident..... go figure.....

pay the piper

You know the story....a guy that plays a pipe can get the rats outta town; the towns folk dont pay him so he plays a tune and takes all their children away.. I done worse..

Update: quick ass nutshell.... got a job last year finally. Crappy job running a kitchen for a guy that watched Food Network to many times and thought he could own a restaurant.. he lost (and I quit last month.. after a knee blow out over the summer that needed surgery)... Rolled my truck onto its roof about a year ago and the cops were amazed that there was even a survivor.. I walked away with a small cut on my hand from supporting myself on the roof (kinda.. more like "in the shattered glass where the sun roof used to be" so I could relieve the seatbelt pressure while suspended upside down... I finished my smoke before starting the evacuation process :) sent Delores an email too

3 days later, I got some REALLY fucked up news.. I was gonna be a dad... by a friend of mine who I got drunk with one to many times.. He's 3 months old now.. I just put him down to bed and currently smell like partially digested baby formula... and I get to look forward to all this again.

Yup

Another one coming any day now.....

Chick I got set up with shortly after the accident and a few days after Baby Momma 1 (lets call her Brenda) went FB public with the baby news.. It took some explaining and all but, shit, we're adults, shit happens, there's a baby coming and I'm gonna be a dad (again) and while unexpected, he's gonna be loved and cared for and I'm gonna be part of his life (Brenda even has a BF now..)

Well... New chick (howabout..Tammy).. Tammy is having some understandable issues with dating a guy who has a kid on the way with some other woman and inadvertantly tells me.. by sending me a text message intended for her friend. I can understand all this and her wanting some "normalcy" and I didnt think anyone would be able to handle this,, and it wasnt fair to her regardless.. So I decided to break up with her.....

She comes over this past summer and looks nervous. Im thinking its cuz shes uncomfortable about the text thing... im a little on edge cuz I'm about to dump her.. I let her talk first and I'M THE ONE WHO GOT FLOORED!!!!

"I'm pregnant"

I shit you not.. I was about to dump her, she tells me shes knocked up... I even told her that I was about to drop her.. I still am but that fucked up my world in ways I cant even describe..

Yup.. A 3 month old I just put down to bed (Brenda is my room mate now, we have separate rooms but share the parenting... and yes, she knows that there is another one coming) and a phone with the ringer set to high cuz I could get a call at any moment in the next week to go and start this whole fucking process again...

Im retired.. Im fucking retired (pun intended)

funny part about it all... Brenda's concern was that her being knocked up would ruin my chances with Delores. When I told Brenda about Tammy, she said "you fucked up all your chances with that girl"...

She's right

first things first

its been a while... a long fucking while. And I'm sure no one is reading this anymore.....especially her. So I can say this....

I still think about you every day.. EVERY day.

She's happy. I've heard through the grapevine..

And thats all that I ever wanted for her.....

and now the fill in....... as best I can in the few minutes I have...

Critical Updates Pending

When I get some free time, I will get it all put down.
There is A LOT.. A little about Delores and a SHIT TON about me including seeing Delores a few times, getting a crappy job, a major car accident..aaaand...a kid on the way (oops).

details when I have a chance

Wedding Bells

They're a ringing.....

Sorry that its been so long, but not a lot of anything has occurred until the past 2 weeks and I've been kinda processing it all..

NO.. not my wedding bells.. Ex is getting married.
Yup, she is taking the plunge again.

For those that know the back story, you are probably thinking that I would blow up, or that she is nuts, or have a shitload of opinions...

Guess how I reacted?????

I said "Congratulations" .... and even more... I meant it.

I really am happy for her... oh, yes, its the same guy that she left me for.. but I really am. She found a guy that she likes enough to commit to like that again.. he's good with my kids (they love him to death) and he's a nice guy.

Yeah, seriously.. he's a nice guy. I met him last week. I like him.
I would love to hang out with him. If things were different, I'd give him a shot at being a friend of mine. But unfortunately, he's not really up for that.
I met him on a freakishly hot day when I dropped the kids back with her and there were some large items that needed to be moved from her old place. I had the ability to take them to her moms which is on my way home, so I did. And he helped me load it all up.

It was a little funny to me because when its hot like that, I take off my shirt.. Now I'm not a bodybuilder by any means, but for a 36 yr old man who hasn't exercised regularly in YEARS, I've kept it pretty well... I was throwing things around that he had trouble just handling. We got along.. he and I talked for about an hour and half in the process of getting this crap loaded up and secured. He really is a cool guy..not very strong, but a good guy non the less.

I know it sounds superficial and that i was trying to intimidate, but it really wasn't like that at all. he was scared but he was the one that approached me (remember, I was dropping off the kids and gathering all their shit and letting Ex know what was where, etc).. We shook hands and I said "glad to meet you".. he said the same thing, but included "finally".... I let it go... I'm the one who had been asking for a year.

We did it, and got it all loaded into my truck and trailer just as the drops of a storm started to fall. Ex and the kids were in their car and I had volunteered to take it to he mom's house.. I mean, shit... its the least I could do.. so I guess you could call that their wedding gift (I'm still broke as fuck but it saved them a few hundred bucks)..

So the kids and Ex are in the car and its just me and him as we walk towards it so I can give the hugs and kisses to the kids.... While still a good distance away, I said "Hey!!" and tapped him on the arm. As he turned, I stuck out my hand and said "hey dude, congratulations..seriously"

He said "thanks.. it really was good to meet you finally" and I agreed..

A couple more steps happened and then I did it... I grabbed his right shoulder with my left hand (because he was in front of me and a bit to my left) and turned him around.. looked him square in the eye..." Dude... I don't give a shit anymore...really... I don't" as I shook his hand again..

We left it at that. I said goodbye to the kids.

In hindsight I should have worded that differently, but I think he got the point... the point that I really am past it all. I even told Ex in a text after they pulled away that I really liked the guy.. I do. I even feel bad for him because I know what he is getting into...
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention.. they're planning on having kids.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Dropping like flies

sooooo...
Now I am starting to experience another extreme of sorts...
I've just lost about half of my ass....
the ass I was getting at least.. one has a boyfriend... one got arrested (she was supposed to be here this past weekend), one said that she doesn't "share well".. and one, just a few hours ago, "broke up" with me... she wants kids in the future... and a marriage... I had said a few weeks ago that I was not interested in either..... because I have two of the former and have had one of the latter

she didnt like that. The marriage thing wasn't nearly as important as the kid thing was... but its not exactly like I've had the best record when it has come to my last two (I'm including the miscarriage in this calculation)

I have nothing against kids... not at all. I've even thought about what it would be like to have a 3rd with someone..... and then I remember all the shit from the first two that I have and how much I miss them....and then I would miss out on even more....

so no....no more kids. I want to focus on the two that I have when the rare chance that I get them happens

and... I'm still working on Linda... I don't contact her, but she gets in touch with me periodically... and then I try to keep the conversation going.... but just like with Delores, it will just end... end with no response....
I'll get all this shit figured out one day.. I know I will

2:37

BINGO BINGO BINGO!!!!!!

"Bingo" used to be the call sign for an interception back in the old days when I played football.. It told the defense to basically switch from attacking to blocking in order to get the absolute best field position or even get it to the end zone....

The chick I was concerned about.. the one who kept talking about our "compatibility"... has started dating..

YES!!!!!!!

She just told me. I could tell that she had some concerns about how I was gonna take it... That's funny considering that we had talked about her dating just about 2 months ago. She brought it up about how I would feel if she did. I told her that we had agreed that we would make a horrible couple, that we were both just kind of filling a void... that I would be happy for her.
We've been friends for over 25 yrs. We've helped each other through some rough times...

She also said that she's "dating"... and doesn't have a boyfriend yet...and wanted to make sure that I was still available to fulfill some of those "adult needs"... (she gets off on giving blow jobs and has told me that I have been her absolute favorite all around; size, taste, recovery and large amount of load... and quite frankly.. she's the BEST I have ever had [no offense to anyone].. the first one, I was standing up and she dropped me to my knees in 45 seconds. I still grin thinking about that night)

Man.. life is good.. I still didnt tell her about the chicks I nailed in her bed... I was tempted to, but I'm not that stupid....

I'm curious when this life will blow up in my face.. right now, I don't care cuz all my married friends HATE ME... and hate hearing my stories. Not because they don't like me, but because they are stuck watching me live every man's fantasy...

I FUCKING LOVE IT!!!!

Overscheduled and wearing down

Stamina... I'm kind of well known for it. In several ways; physically and mentally.

But every man has a point that he just needs a fucking break and I think I have hit that point...
The big difference between the break I need now and the break I needed before is that I have done it to myself....and I'm not complaining about it at all.

My business is taking off very well and I'm loving it.. but the work is labor intensive and then I have administrative duties when I get home.. and I am squeezing that in between the woman juggling....

Yup, I'm at it again and better than ever. I actually have a rotation that I use. I hooked up with 2 chicks while living in the city; one I'm still seeing and the other, I think has decided not to get together again. I don't really care because she was WAAAYYY younger that me.. oh well.
The one I'm still seeing is very capable of keeping up with me...very capable. And that is pretty much the only thing that we have in common; the ability to fuck each other silly.

I have "arrangements" with 2 friends who are in between relationships and ask me to help satisfy "adult needs"..seriously, that's all I am and I really like that set up. There kinda is a third in that arena and that is starting to scare me some because she keeps hinting at our compatibility even though we discussed months ago what a disaster we would be as a romantic couple. I know it is coming from the way I make her eyes roll back and she definitely doesn't have the ability to keep up with me, so i may have to end that one. Especially if she found out what the hell I did on her bed for 3 weeks

Have another flying in.. just to literally sample the goods. That one I can't wait for...gonna be 3 days of insane nakedness... Why? because she has always wanted to know since hearing what I did to a few of her friends.

All this, plus another 2 that have me on a booty call hot line... they get a few drinks, get antsy in the pantsy and my phone is ringing at odd hours... sometimes I go and sometimes not. Kinda depends on what I had done that day.. but i have achieved one of the more "manly" things in life... 2 in a day.. but at least I showered in between.

Add all this to my working out and the manual labor that I do daily and I am wearing down fast. I have 3 more big jobs to schedule in and am looking for an investor and a few people to bring in part time.

I have decided to take a day off today and get some stuff done around here. rest up my abs and chest and shoulders (they have been getting a hell of a workout the past few weeks)... I really have to recover because tomorrow is going to be another rough and wild day.. my "match" is coming over for the first time.. And there is only one other person that has ever even come close to keeping up...Strangely.. there are a LOT of similarities between the two... way to many.. kinda weird to be honest.

So ladies.. be wary.. OG is out there and on the hunt. And if you get your chance, you may just be able to figure out who I am while you lay there quivering in exhaustion trying to get your eyes to focus again...

I think I may bring in Tucker Max as a wing man.. I could teach him a few things

It just keeps getting easier

I didn't even realize it until I saw the date today..
I actually had to think about it, but I knew there was some significance to today. Something just kept "ringing a bell" in my head...

Two years ago I was delivered the hardest kick in the nuts that I have ever received... two years ago at 5:15 pm... I almost forgot it. I bet next year, if I don't pay attention to the date, I wont even notice it...

Summer in the city

I have moved to the city for the next few weeks.. pet sitting.

I've been here before and done all this before, but that was when I had absolutely nothing else to do other than sit around and wallow in self pity. In fact, the last time was when Linda popped back up.
Now.. I'm fucking tired as all hell. I have to get up early and get the critters walked and fed, then get myself walked and fed, hop in the truck and take an unfamiliar commute.

Add to that, I started on a second "quick" job today... pulling down a bathroom ceiling and replacing it. I thought it would have taken just a few hours.. that was until the mold started coming down too.. then I had to work slow.. really slow. I didn't have the proper gear for this and I couldn't leave them without a functional bathroom..(it's the only one) So I took it on the rest of the day. Had to replace the framing structure, redo my entire plan of how to replace this ceiling.

Something kept telling me to be outta there by 5:30.. no matter what. so I pushed it and picked up the pace. I was sweating like a pig all day. I had to have stunk. No way to tell the time other than to stop and get my phone from the tool box... The next series of cuts I had to do, I checked.. 5:33... I started at an even more furious pace and then I heard it... I heard it happen out in the living room

"Hi Linda, did you come to see the mess?"

Yes.. I was working on her Mom's place.. and yes... I had hoped to see her...
But I knew I had to get the hell out because I knew the next thing I was going to hear from the living room was... "This is Jay...."

But wait... it gets better.. They poke their heads around the corner (which is just across from Linda's room) to see whats going on and I had to do the obligatory stop in mid work and say "Whats up Jay.. been a long time.. what have you been up to?"

Yup.. I know him. Known him a long time. What kinda makes it really weird.. is that he doesn't know about me. Linda told me that was who she was seeing.. she had mentioned my name to him and he said he knew me... a few days later, he asked what our relationship had been. She told me this.. that she had said we were just friends.. I added in for her to say that we had worked together, I had helped her move and that I was going to be working on her moms bathroom...

The guy doesn't know... and he probably doesn't know about the 2 dozen texts we exchanged after that while they were at dinner.. it started with me saying that I wasn't ready for that just yet, but thought I handled it pretty well... her response was that she felt bad and thought I would have been gone by that time, but she does miss me.
There were a bunch more that I'm not gonna go into because it doesn't matter... It doesn't anymore.. I hesitated and lost.. and I'm not going to get into another "fight"

He makes her happy and treats her well, I have no reason to impose on that..
Told Linda that too.

But I do miss her

But its probably for the best, I mean... I need to start thinning out the herd so to speak.... I've got way to much going on with to many people plus getting a business off the ground.. I think I'll start trimming when I get home.. I'll be 3 weeks in the city with plenty of time to think... and decide if I'm going to take a few trips or not...

Oh, I forgot to mention.. I have a bunch of out of town offers... offers to be flown in just to "hang out" for a few days... I'm not stupid, I know what the offer is, I'm just deciding if I want to go that route again (only one is single..). And then there are the others.... I'm still debating if I want to put those adventures down or not... there's been quite a few the past month..

And one REALLY interesting "battle" at a bar a few days ago.. newly divorced chick sitting between me and this other guy going through one.. obviously, our attentions turned to her and it was the BEST game of cat and mouse that you could have witnesses. I knew I lost when he went and got a room at the luxury hotel that the bar was in.. I knew he had it at that point.. but he and I exchanged information and I invited him out to be my wingman any day, because he does have some skills, formidable ones..Haven't heard back yet, but its only been a couple days and he is probably still recovering because I bet she showed him what the world was like.. you could tell she was an animal... you could just tell...

DAMN.. I wish I had more time to party and less time to work while I'm here....
Oh well, I could always say yes to a plane ticket