Desperation

I found a temporary solution.
I'm going to sell off my stocks and cash in my 401k and IRA... that'll give me enough cash to fend off the creditors and keep a roof over my head for a few months.

Then, I'll have to work two or three jobs to get it recharged back to where I was, but it sure as hell beats the street in the winter and giving up the dog to a certain death at the pound.

Ex will take most of it to fund her traveling and hobbies, but at least I'll have a little more time if some of these people will just listen to the desperate situation. Its amazing how many people really only care about money in the short term instead of working with someone for the long term.

At least I don't have to prostitute myself, which I almost ended up doing last week.

And I think its time Delores and I have a serious talk... I think that she left me some time ago, in her heart. It is kind of obvious. I've just recently been able to see it all in the big picture. Not that she doesn't care, but I think any future interest is gone... Its a natural reaction. I cant provide therefore I am not a suitable mate.

I just wish it could have lasted the entire year; 365 days, but she left a few months ago.