Anger, Hate and Resentment

I can't fucking believe this. Shit is still being decided for me.

I was supposed to have the kids this weekend. Ex had made some plans for them to go swimming with her Aunt on Saturday. I didn't have a problem with that at all. I don't have access to a pool and they really enjoy it. Ex told me to coordinate with Auntie about getting them there and such as Auntie had picked them up on Friday.

I called and left a message, and again on Saturday.

Ex sends a text this morning "You have the kids?"

"Nope. Nothing from Auntie either and I am pretty pissed. they're my kids, not theirs"

And it went back and forth about how I am sick of being treated like this. Her family keeps deciding things, especially when it comes to me seeing my children. In Ex's defense, she had no idea. She really thought that they were here.

Her family has picked what events I'm allowed to attend, what holidays, birthdays, and now, THEY DECIDE MY FUCKING VISITATION????????

Ex didn't blame me for being mad. She tried to call and I didn't answer. I was too angry. I told her that I didn't answer because I would end up taking it out on her and I knew it wasn't her fault.

I do know that I will get them today, and I WILL LAY INTO THEM. They pissed me off to much in this whole situation from the beginning.

They blame me, without knowing what happened, and I keep my mouth shut. They ask to take them to special events (without me of course) on my weekends. I give them up for a few hours because I know that the kids will like it and I cant afford to expose them to these things.
I even gave up Easter because they do some pretty neat things for all the kids.
They feel it is "Inappropriate" for a father to spend time with his kids around Ex family members.

I never had an issue with them before. I don't care about the boyfriend being there. I really don't. But I really wish that I could spend some of those special holidays with them that they always remember.
"No one else does it" I keep being told.
BULLSHIT, people do it everyday.
Ex and I get along well enough to interact. I don't give a shit how they feel. But to threaten to boycott a 1st birthday if I attend??? What The Fuck?????

My kids... MY KIDS.... I've had enough of this shit