Strange turn of events

I am now unemployed. lost my job on friday. In the search for new employment, I keep coming across the posting for my position. I laugh some because the description is not what the job really entails, but that is how they are going to get some lower cost, less effective help. One of my former co-workers mentioned to me that it was ridiculous for me to be let go. He sees the weekly numbers and knows that I had surpassed expectations in less than a year while others from my team are half of were I was after 2 and 3 years on the job... There's nothing I can do about it except look for something else.

Delores starts working again this monday. I really hope it works out for her and into a permanent position, she's been looking for so long that I'm sure that the searching and resumes got to be aggravating.

Odd that my days are now free and hers are now occupied, but again, nothing I can do about it.

I did get to see her yesterday briefly. She was on a long drive back and stopped for a break near my place. I know she was tired, but something was off, she seemed distant... pulling away... I don't know. It could have been me just looking for something considering all the negativity the past few weeks that has surrounded just about every aspect of my life... absolutely nothing is going right, so maybe I am waiting for that hammer to fall as well. I hope it is just in my head, but that is pretty much the only thing left to loose right now.

Then there is the impending fight with Ex. She is going to rip into me. No more insurance (paid by me that is) for the kids, no more income left to give her to support the vacations, even though she insists that she cant pay her bills. I'm not even really going to be able to have the kids stay over, I cant afford the utilities. I don't run the AC and it gets dangerously hot in here at times and I can't afford the bill as it is..

This really is turning into a very, very ugly mess. I keep looking for the light at the end of the tunnel. I do, I keep looking... and at times, I hope it is the train....