There are some explanations to these chosen url's that you all may not know about.
I can easily explain mine, Life After Heaven...... Breaking Delores however, requires some insight into a lovely young woman.
I have never asked her about this and I wont. She has the full capability now of not only commenting to this, but also posting her own rebuttal, or even asking me to remove it completely (which I would if she asked)
It's easier to start with the beginning.
January of 2009, Delores started a blog url'd "The Road to Divorce".... The big D word.
And she lit that thing up with posts. there were some that I liked reading over and over again; it was nice (not always) seeing what she thought of me in print. I saved a lot of them and still have them to this day. But one day.. it was gone. Almost immediately after I looked, I got an email from her saying that I was reading it to much. That was why she changed it.. I still remember where I was when I read that. I let it go for a few days and then admitted to her that all that it was, was that I had favorite parts that I liked to look at... She understood that and sent me the new one...Breaking Delores...the Big D word and 62 days of Heaven.
Now I know that those of you that have seen it are saying "no... it's 73 days of heaven". You are correct.. except that it was changed... 62 days was when she started the original blog.. we took a "break" and thought it was over... then another at 73 days... "The Bust" happened at 120. Believe me... heaven does not describe it.. and oddly enough, the saga continues... approx 490 days later (plus or minus a day or two, I didn't actually count this time)
I actually think that was a more appropriate one... Breaking Delores. Because that was truly what it was about, her breaking..... Breaking down, breaking away from DH, breaking away from me, breaking down to her core and coming to the realization of what she wants her life to be. Breaking out of the shell she has always lived in, breaking her out. I stopped reading it shortly after because the whole purpose was to help her sort her own shit out; me included. I always knew that eventually there would be things I didn't want to know about there. She even warned me that there might be; we had gone through a few "lets not communicate" periods during this time.. they didn't last long, it was way to hard... still is. But that was how Breaking Delores was born...
On March 4, all hell broke loose. a question was asked, a confession was made, I received a phone call from an appropriately pissed off husband... I was scared shitless for her. I went days not hearing from her and I was terrified. her FB went away (we were friends up until then) and I was blind. I freaked out because all I wanted to know was that she was OK. But I did hear from her after a day or two.. all this shit went down while I was in the process of moving.
Then.... then I got an email that simply said "I wish I had a blog to read over and over again" OG's Story was birthed right there.
I set it up (mind you, I'm not a writer by any means and have never done this before) and had to select a unique url for it.. and I racked my brain for an appropriate one.. lifeafterheaven was available (not anymore). I thought it was.. life after the heaven I had known. This was to be my story, and it still is. It still really is Life After Heaven... that heaven being Delores. She is still around and she is still an integral part of me and there is still a lot that can happen in that arena, but this will always be life after heaven.
Because heaven ended the day I got that phone call
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she has taken over your thoughts, your ability to rationalize......now she's taken over your blog?
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