Fate

I believe in Fate...that things happen for a reason
The coincidences that she and I have experienced are uncanny. There are just to many to mention but it has caused me to TRULY believe that she and I are supposed to be together. whether or not that happens remains to be seen, but I have never believed in soulmates until she came back into my life.

Now someone might say, if we were meant to be, why did this happen and we got caught and are going through all this crappy suckiness and heartbreak? Because it needed to happen.

After dealing with the intensity of Tuesday (and believe me it was a CRAZY 24 hours) I have been thinking and I decided that there was a step that I needed to take.
I had the first civil conversation with my ex-wife a few days ago. While she hasn't exactly been an angel since our divorce, I haven't exactly been "Mr. Perfect" either. I've actually been quite an asshole. we talked for over three hours in calm, rational adult tones. Now she has known about Delores for some time but I have kept stressing that she and I were just friends because of the sensitive nature of our situation (not to mention the almost identical parallels in the two marriages).
This time I told her the truth. I didn't go into the gory details but explained the situation which included my thought and feelings toward Delores even while we were married......She was supportive. Very supportive and also mentioned that she had already figured it out.

My ex is rooting for this to come out in my favor and is STILL willing to have that conversation with her if she wants. Guess it wasn't a bad idea to ask that favor a few months ago.